Mighty Roman Themes: Gay Rights


The Mighty Roman
The First and Only Most Glorious Season
of the Cal–Hairy Baseball League



Welcome to this page of excerpts from The Mighty Roman, a novel about baseball and the modern American man. This book, while fast and funny, delves into all kinds of hot­–button social issues—including, as in the excerpts below, gay rights.

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man–crush in baseball
oh so right to admire
such power and grace!

~ Matt Marola, pitcher, San Carlos Coyotes

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     Roman's face twisted with anguish as he measured his next words. “You know, Matt, it used to be fine to call a fag fag. You can’t even call a fag fag anymore!” ~ Roman Meister, manager, San Carlos Coyotes

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     "This is a real-life novel, packed with personalities and filled with beautiful language and true emotion.  Huck's raft becomes a team bus, and it is a ride worth taking."  ~ Tony Press, riverbabble.

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     Victory was ours! And we mobbed Rex in the manner we had all seen countless times growing up, forming a throbbing human circle around him and jumping wildly with arms linked as we whooped and hollered along with the crowd. This, I thought, is true exultation, this is the jubilation that non–believers like me miss out on when the Holy Rollers and gospel choirs do their thing in church. Twenty young men stomped and screamed and danced and whirled, and my arms clung tight to two pairs of strong shoulders while two strong arms clung tight to me. They were someone's arms, no one's: we were one joyous body.
     But Roman stood aloof, with a feeble grin weighed down by surprise, hurt, and loathing.

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"Jon Sindell's voice is what makes this book."
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"Throw in some off-field adventures, teenage romance, racism and homophobia, and you are pulled into a baseball world that is present day and is pure summer fun reading."


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The Mighty Roman: Chapter One




      “My first day in pro ball,” the first words in the journal given by Mr. Rogers, my soft-spoken, cardigan-wearing dad. “That’s fine, then, Matt, forget about college. But do us a favor and write what you see.” 
       So I wrote about life in the Cal Hairy League. Not misty reminiscences of the sort Dad expected of his “English scholar,” nor rhapsodic odes to “the national pastime,” a term which to me seemed dated and sentimental: are you the national pastime when football slams you in the TV ratings, when city ballfields are weeded over and city dads don’t know how to play catch with their sons, and people on streetcars don’t know who’s in the World Series? Or does it matter—maybe—that you still dream of wet grass sticking to your arms after a game-saving catch at the age of thirteen? Or if the snowy whiteness of a baseball in flight draws swarms of dreams in its wake like a talisman? Or if elfin boys can bunt their way on and steal round the bases trailing clouds of pixie dust while grunting lummoxes throw the wanton ball into left? Or if whippet-thin teens can send the ball flying in majestic arcs to the Outer Mongolias of unfenced fields and reach home precisely one moment before the ball finds the mitt of the armored catcher?  Does it matter, maybe, if infield grit embedded in knees as red and moist as the pulp of ripe plums is morbidly pleasing? Or if transcendence grasps the impossible truth, as I did in twelfth grade, that throwing the ball softer makes batters miss? The week after experiencing that counterintuitive epiphany, I hurled sinkers like a wizard shooting sparks from his staff and watched flailing fools corkscrewing themselves into the ground as my dead-fish pitches dove beneath their bats. The result: a no-hitter. The next week I cut practice—for the first time ever—to skimboard at the beach. I was cut from the team. At home that night I cried without shame, and when I met with my dad and Coach Loach the next day—Coach! Loach!—I was reinstated for a pound of contrition. 
      My Cal Hairy season was the league’s only season: 2008, Obama Summer. I had just graduated from San Francisco's elite public high school, and the students were down with the hope and change thing—but none of us idealistic grads hit the road for Big O. On the other hand, as I word-sketched in my journal on the overnight bus to San Carlos, a couple my age boarded in Santa Cruz en route to Nevada to canvass for Barack. They slid into their seats and melded like cookie dough. After a while, she turned to him with dreamy eyes. But he wouldn’t kiss her because he had a cold. “If you have a cold,” she said, “I want a cold.” I envied the guy his girlfriend’s pathetic devotion, for my just-concluded high school love affair had been an essentially Platonic arrangement which my girlfriend and I had chronicled like anthropologists: "Mating ritual, Day 397. The female, impressed by the male pitcher-bird's cardinal plumage and overall fitness as he struts on the mound, signals her desire by opening her chem book."   
     In Salinas, a man in his thirties boarded with a Bible. He was spindly and his clothes were faded and torn, but his eyes burned with zeal as he searched each passenger’s face while working up the aisle. My fellow passengers either didn’t notice the man's gaze or averted their eyes, but I held his gaze to prove to him—and myself—that I wasn’t intimidated, just as I had taught myself, after three years of being clobbered on the mound, not to be intimidated by glaring batters stronger and more aggressive than me. His gaze broke under mine; he dropped down into his seat and prayed; and I felt wizardly indeed.
      Across the aisle from the man, a forlorn waif of seventeen balled her legs up inside a peasant skirt and sneaked a wary glance at the man. He opened his eyes at just the right moment and fixed the girl’s gaze like a frog fast-snapping its tongue at a fly. A soft–spoken suggestion issued from his lips. The girl nodded with caution. He slid into the seat next to hers and told a tale on himself, its humor premised on his ineptitude with bus timetables. She assured him that no one could read them, least of all her. He asked her name. She answered. Her age. She replied. He asked where she had come from, and where she was going. At last, inevitably, he asked for her story. A boy. A seduction. And then a betrayal. She shuddered as if seized by a terrible chill.
      “I understand," he assured her. “But remember, Jenny: Jesus Christ loves you.”
     “I want Bobby!” cried Jenny, then sobbed convulsively into her arms. The man arose and studied her uncertainly before patting her shoulder as if she might explode. She shrugged his hand off and kept her head down, so the man laid a laminated card bearing scriptural verses on the seat next to hers and withdrew. After a short interval of silent prayer he turned to me with trepidation.      "Little brother, have you heard the good news?”
     “That Obama just wrapped up the nomination?” I had little experience in warding off missionaries, but thought that would work.
     “Actually,” he chuckled, “I have something a bit more profound in mind. So tell me, Slim, from whence do you hail?” San Francisco, I said, hoping this would repel him. “San Francisco?” He mulled the matter over and frowned, then smiled to assure me that all was not lost. I felt offended by the implication that anything was lost, and asserted: “I’ve got lots of gay friends.” This was but loosely true: though none of the out–gays in my school was a personal friend—I had just two personal friends of any type, for I feared groups, was absurdly reserved, and hated fast chatter—I had been named Gay For A Day after swing–dancing with a gay guy during a courtyard demonstration when out–of–state bigots picketed the campus.
     The man nodded like a youth counselor listening with magnanimity to a repugnant admission. As a pitcher, my killer instinct kicked in when I had two strikes on the batter. I could tell I had this guy in a hole, so I threw a high hard one: “And I’m totally against Prop 8 man, and I don’t care what any book says," book a deliberate reduction of Bible. "You should be allowed to marry whomever you please," using SAT grammar as an additional weapon. The man set his jaw as if staring at an abomination straight out of Leviticus; he turned away and prayed for my soul.
     I listened to baseball fiction on the graduation iPod as we rolled on south through the Central Valley darkness. The evangelist got off at a town south of Fresno, walked across the lot, and boarded a bus heading back to Salinas. “Midnight Rider,” the driver said. “Rides all night saving souls.”
     A bit after dawn we reached Bakersfield. ...
  
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... Failing to notice Roman's dismayed stare, he settled in to observe Rex's demonstration of yogic stretches. Was someone watching me?
     Could be—for we do watch one another. In the locker room, nude, we are all Greek gods. We look at each other, and we check ourselves out. The mirror in the anteroom of the shower room, which reflected carved torsos from the waist up, was always in use—and you had to wait long to look in that mirror, what with the sculpted Dominican Alfredo Disculpe admiring himself as he drew his finger along his smooth jawline, or the lithe M.C. patting talcum powder all over his body for the third time that day, or our many weightlifters admiring their carved physiques while pretending not to admire their carved physiques. Rex had divined a three-second rule: stare at your bod for more than three seconds, you're waaay vain, dude. My father was so modest a man that I had never even seen him naked, and it was his mild voice that expressed disapproval as I gazed at the lean young man in the mirror. My own voice insisted that I was studying my physique not for pleasure or pride, nor to admire the orange–and–black interlocking SF on my right arm just below my shoulder, nor the red rose with green stem on my left arm—tats that had earned me the nickname Mat Tat on my high school team—no, I told myself, I was gazing at my body for the purely respectable purpose of assessing my build for baseball mechanics. Too thick in the pecs? That could slow down my fastball. Too thin in the neck? That could lead to neck strain. But I had ventured far beyond the border of Three–Second Land now, so I checked behind myself in the mirror. Sure enough, there was Roman, studying me with a kaleidoscopic blend of curiosity, alarm, and disgust. “Jesus, Matt, you are from San Francisco.” He turned his repulsed expression from me and sulked haughtily off as if I had betrayed him.
     That night I wrote a haiku which I secretly posted on the locker room mirror before the next game:

man crush in baseball
oh so right to admire
such power and grace!

     Roman stabbed the poem with a dart and left it impaled in the cork board, just as his namesakes had crucified Spartacus and 6,000 other rebel slaves along the Appian Way as a warning to all would would defy Rome. After the next game, Roman removed the dart like a knife from a corpse and crumpled the haiku while looking around for an involuntary facial confession. The ruse did not work, so he sniffed the paper, wrinkled his nose in disgust, threw the wad down onto the floor, stomped it with his shower shoe, and kicked it across the locker room floor.
     Poor poem!

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The Mighty Roman is available in paperback on Amazon, as an ebook on Amazon, or as an ebook on Smashwords—or ask your local indie bookstore to order it for you. 


San Francisco readers: autographed copies are available by arrangement. Write jsind@sbcglobal.net to find out more, or to learn about readings and other appearances.


Yours in the love of baseball and lit,
Jon

Also read "Lawrence," a short story about a simple high school youth who stands up for animals and gays. A free ebook on Smashwords, soon to be a novel.



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